Moments of overwhelming thoughts/feelings/direction. Lifes unexpected capacity to throw everything it has at you while you struggle to simply stay afloat in the rising tide of necessity and desire. Blindly walking a library of maps all leading to drastically opposite ends of any spectrum. It is all evident that life can get hectic from time to time, trying to choose what needs to be done, what you want to be done, and what 'can' be done. As life continues on, it becomes more and more evident that these differences become all the more difficult to choose from. As one thing is resolved, another is created. A non-stop catching up that never seems to end, and that it seems, is what life is.

Life is and will always be complicated and tangled. It is key, at least for myself, to find a way to clarify and prioritize aspects in my life according to what I feel is the most important and beneficial to myself. Currently this is an easy prospect, while at the same time, a very difficult one. Work will remain work. Until the professional work comes to a place where I am happy to be doing it, it is a paycheck, and a necessary one. It is not the worst of jobs, but a job none-the-less, and while not always the most stimulating, constantly a learning experience. And for that it is beneficial. Friends also are important. In an earlier post I called San Francisco the city of acquaintances, and that it is. Trying to focus on those friendships and relationships that matter is extremely important. I am glad to be pushing a few, and have recently became happy to lose a few. Learning how to tell what is actually beneficial and what is solely something that will hurt is something that I found to be a necessity. And while it is not always so easy to decide which end of the spectrum a relationship may fall, it is always a learning experience one way or the other. That logic is something that is applied to everything, not just relationships, but most commonly so. Fairwhether. Started as a desire to collaborate and create. No direction in mind, but knowing that there is one, and that it will become clear as it comes 'to be.' It is coming 'to be' and will continue to do so, but like anything I involve myself, it is not at the expedited rate that I wish. Am I expecting too much of myself and Fairwhether? Probably, but I choose to not let that be an excuse. I know Fairwhether is something that is me, and something I need to continue to focus on. Like the friendships I want to see blossom, and the work I want to do, these are all very important items that need my focus, and it is key that I learn how to find the projects and prospects that will help push those items.

Focus is a necessity. I need to be able to see what are main objectives in my life and focus on those particulars rather than too many things. There will always be too many things out there for me to be distracted by, but hopefully only momentarily, and the primary ideas come back into focus. For now, it is enjoying friends and Fairwhether. Two things that I know I can help form, enjoy and help me push myself in the directions I need 'to be.'

Fairwhether is my Ariadne.